Book of Mormon
Mormon 4:1-22
D&C
134:4-10
October General Conference
'Prophets of God'
Sister Spannaus
Rain seems to be in the forecast and snow in the high country. Both ski runs will be open soon. I spent the day inside where it is cozy and warm.
James went to a service project today, helping a new family move into the ward, the Stevens' family. James said 15 people showed up to help. He couldn't say enough about 8 year old Eli Robles. He said he never stopped working, carrying a box and then going back for another, non-stop.
I got caught in cat prison/heaven this morning. Finally I, escaped.
My focus today was preparing my Relief Society lesson for tomorrow. I made my handouts, all 50 of them. Whew!
James worked on the railing outside this afternoon. He set a new post, a log weighing about 120 lbs. His back is going to hurt tomorrow. He never stops.
I told Kim that I was having a difficult time identifying with Jonah and here is what she wrote to me:
Mom, I was thinking about how you said you were having a hard time connecting to Jonah. And while I certainly can't relate to being swallowed by a whale, I can relate to feeling like I am in a deep dark place and I am miserable and want to be rescued.
I can relate to god wanting me to do something and me not wanting to and maybe ignoring it or running away.
I can relate to being in a mess because of my own doing and not feeling worthy to call out for help but absolutely needing to.
I can even relate to going back and doing the right thing and then feeling resentment or anger that God blessed or forgave someone that maybe I don't think he should have.
I guess I like Jonah's story because I CAN relate to it. He seems very human. He lets his emotions get in the way; fear, guilt, remorse, trying to do the right thing but then not quite getting it right or feeling resentment when someone else gets a blessing or feeling like they don't deserve it, but still calling on God to help him out in the messy situations he gets himself in.
Sometimes the prophets seem so perfect it's hard to live up to (think Nephi - did he ever get anything wrong?). But Jonah is a lesson for those who make mistakes and try to fix them but often do it imperfectly and a God who is so good that he doesn't hold those mistakes against us and lets us keep trying and trying and He still shows up for us.
Yes, God asks us to do hard things. Things we may not understand or want to do. But he is there with us every step of the way.
To me Jonah is a story of hope and help and a God who never gives up on us and wants us to keep trying.